Category Archives: Self

Just keep going. Making up for lost time. And every time asking yourself – what if… 

What if I paid attention to the constant motion of the clock? Would I still be here? Rambling nonsensical bullshit, shouting into the abyss? 

It’s false, this feeling inside. A change so drastic, yet so predictable. A quantum of peace even if it’s an illusion. Why can’t I find it? 

I don’t think this dreamworld is helping me as much as I’d like. Reality, for all its problems is far helpful in shaping a person than dreams. Not that there is anything wrong with dreaming, but reality matters more. 

You can still wish you were Neo, though. That’s absolutely fine! 

Confrontation is hard. You don’t want to come out looking like a jackass. However, you don’t want to let people walk all over you either. It’s important to speak up. But keep in mind that humility goes a long way. And humiliation is just going to find its way back to you if you use it on others for petty reasons.

At what point does something you love become a chore? At what point does something you hate becomes a choice? 

Out of the blue, an opportunity; a burden is more like it. If you still want to go ahead with it, you truly have grown. 

I guess I’m still a child! 

Sometimes you can see clearly the destination you set out to reach. And then, at the last moment, everything goes dark, only to be greeted by an inexplicable diversion you never knew of, to lead you farther away. 

I do feel lost at times. Lost, beyond belief. Nothing makes sense and the world feels like an unwarranted duplicitous burdensome place. I feel the need to ask questions and yet I don’t because I’m afraid of the answers. Where is my life taking me? Is there such a thing as fate? How can I even give credence to this unscientific curiosity? I guess I’m just going through the motions of life with blended days and never ending nights. I do try to get myself out of this feeling. Alas! No avail. Every time I see  water on the road, it turns out to be a reflection… never ending story of my life!