rasik

Erratic Thoughts # 24

If it’s not coming from the heart, it’s ok to not do it.

Sometimes all you can do is relive those memories over and over. Until even eyes become arid to cry.

half foot in the air
another half to go
doubt feels real now
don’t know where to go

is it possible to change
destiny that seems written
or is the thorny road right
and i am the wrong one

all i can do is wait now
half step in the air
crossing my fingers, hoping
i rid myself of despair

i have demons in me
demons of my utter failure
gnawing away my life
crippling me from inside

my insidious fears
overwhelming my heart
beats running thunderous
for an unexpected stop

yet i’m to hold off
losing my composure
to maintain my dignity
and overcome failure

how am i to do this
when demons in me reside
gnawing away my life
crippling me from inside

an unexpected quiet
quite welcome sight
for alone time
for a lone mind
few and far between
otherwise unkeen

use it well youngling
cause company will ping
to rid you of solitude
back to the sombre mood
making you wait long
for another silent song

Time might never come back. But however much is left can be used to go ahead and fulfill the dreams instead of wondering about the past.

Remember despair. It will help you to appreciate happiness better.

a brighter day and
a better tomorrow
is a distant dream
in the dark night

Sometimes all you can see is the horizon. And the more you walk, the farther it gets.