fading memories

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the days of sunshine and rain
are now a memory, a dream distant
wish i could relive them again
and drown the sorrow this instant

why can’t the mirror see that far
but just a moment passed instead
and reassure gloom it won the war
reveling coldly in those eyes dead

all i’m left with are memories now
for my present is forever alone
but can the furure be hopeful somehow
or all my happiness is forever gone

366 of 366

​Somehow I managed to post everyday for the past year. Perhaps, I ended up with completing an unspoken resolution. Now that I sit here and look back at the months, I can see the ups and downs so vividly.

2016 was not the best year for me. In fact it was one of the worst. This little nook online was the only hopeful thing that happened to me. I guess that is precisely why I kept coming back. Sometimes the things you take for granted will let you know their worth when you least expect it. So much happened all around me. And even with that, all I could manage was to stay motionless. No matter how hard I tried to move, I just couldn’t. Made me feel helpless. The fact that I made through the year in a somewhat sane state is a miracle onto itself. I think this blog was a lot helpful in achieving that.

I don’t know what the next year holds. No one does. All I can do is to stay positive that it will be better. I am hopeful. After all after the rock bottom that was 2016, the only way is up. 

my successful mistakes

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a dread spread throughout
for a decision can change life
regret will be the only friend
and the wound will be rife

but isn’t it better if it’s me
who is responsible for his own
mistakes that are made on the way
instead of blaming people unknown

so let me face my failure
for success is elusive but nigh
give up myself for a shortcut
my god you must be high