i am being watched
through the annals of time
befitting, it seems
that i’m stuck in the present
for past has already
tarnished itself through me
and the future appears just
to tease before disappearing
i am beholden to time
enough to be imprisoned forever
and yet free to feel
my failures over and over
my whole world is slipping away
and all i can do is watch
my own life lacks any of my sway
at last my soul is debauch
we laugh we cry
we heave we sigh
when kids
carefree
a switch and
grown up litte shits
going precariously through
the motions of life
reality is much harsh
than our worst nightmares
for nightmares are courteous
enough to let you escape
but life, fucked up life
grabs you by the throat
flings you around until
handing over to sweet
death
some battles are mine
some squabbles are mine
i alone will face them
without intervention divine
and slowly, life began to unravel
and slowly, the path became clear
a journey on road full of gravel
to be completed with will, sheer
an identity lost to time
an upheaval caused
and all that’s left now
is a lost soul
hurdles some, some cleared
and new issues suddenly seared
man, this life – never ending huh
throwing curveballs, clear them bruh
to wrap it out short and sweet
life’s fun at times, at times shit
so engrossed in the fear of failure
even the time got bored and ran away
and with it went my chance of success
left with twiddling thumbs and no sway
here we are, once again
delirious and daft
with the same mistakes
thrown off of raft
never learned to swim
for pride was high
desperate, limbs flailed
and shore was nigh
drenched in self shame
with feet on ground
ignoring snide laughs
waiting, ships abound
here we are, once again
resolute and unwavering
learning new mistakes
for success most daring