power hungry

drunk with power these peasants
for the first time
great power and no responsibility

to stare down decent people
just cause
and snicker away at their plight

why is power so corrupt for newbs
who can’t reflect
an iota of self regulation

whiling away uneducated brains
on things random
crowning themselves kings

jealous

if i read what you have to say
am i to like it if it’s good
or should i be jealous
for you achieved what i couldn’t

the depth in your words
the pain in your lines
and all i can muster up
are some nonsensical rhymes

i am full of doubt and mediocrity
but you a wizard of words
my reverence for you is taking over
and yet can’t stop feeling jealous

more waiting

waiting for changes, automatic
is just stretching failure
what am i to do with anger near
and no soul sympathetic

the question is not unprepared
and answers known
but with confidence gone
why wonder if the heart is scared

a chance is needed, and that’s it
yet beats thump delaying plunge
and mind waiting to lunge
just to conquer defeat

half foot to go

half foot in the air
another half to go
doubt feels real now
don’t know where to go

is it possible to change
destiny that seems written
or is the thorny road right
and i am the wrong one

all i can do is wait now
half step in the air
crossing my fingers, hoping
i rid myself of despair

fear

i have demons in me
demons of my utter failure
gnawing away my life
crippling me from inside

my insidious fears
overwhelming my heart
beats running thunderous
for an unexpected stop

yet i’m to hold off
losing my composure
to maintain my dignity
and overcome failure

how am i to do this
when demons in me reside
gnawing away my life
crippling me from inside