Trying out something new actively. Just the new motion in body, to be able to do something is enough to look at life with a new perspective. There’s a reason why people don’t like sitting idle. This new endeavor I am undertaking is very important to me. And very scary. Yet, I find myself smiling at another chance life has afforded me. Hopefully, something good will come out of it.
new and old
hurdles some, some cleared
and new issues suddenly seared
man, this life – never ending huh
throwing curveballs, clear them bruh
to wrap it out short and sweet
life’s fun at times, at times shit
lost cause
so engrossed in the fear of failure
even the time got bored and ran away
and with it went my chance of success
left with twiddling thumbs and no sway
Erratic Thoughts # 40
Tough not to panic thinking about the future… especially if it looks nonexistent. The best hope is to take one day at a time. And let tomorrow come to us.
Limbo
I’ve been in a limbo half my life. Stuck at the same place I so desperately wanted to try for the first time. It looked out of my comfort zone. A nice challenge. And now, years have passed and it has become the ultimate comfort. all I want, all I need – is to be able to get out of this comfort zone, and into a fiery pit that would make me run like never before.
All I keep thinking about is the various ways i can employ to achieve this goal. And somehow, nothing seems to work. Even if I start the whole thing afresh. I can’t understand why I am being tested in such a manner that all I can see is haze before my eyes and fear in my mind. Does it mean that I don’t have what it takes to get out of the pitiful position I’m in? Am I responsible for all of this? Whatever ‘this’ is…
I’ve had thoughts of giving up. But my mind just can’t do it. So weak! And that is why here I am, a fool, trying and trying to get somewhere. Waking up everyday thinking today will be different, and going to bed at night with just a replay of the past days, just like the days before, jut like the days before.
Erratic Thoughts # 39
Seems that the world has totally lost it. Entitlement of the highest level and the assumption that we are always right and others always wrong. It’s not like I am not a culprit here. Everyone is doing it. And everyone thinks they are doing it for the right reasons. Unfortunately, all we get as a result is complete anarchy and chaos making it impossible to find what’s true anymore.
21st century everyone!
Erratic Thoughts # 38
The confluence of ideas sometimes will give the illusion that the problems are solved, when in fact they are about to get you in an ocean of trouble.
raft and shore
here we are, once again
delirious and daft
with the same mistakes
thrown off of raft
never learned to swim
for pride was high
desperate, limbs flailed
and shore was nigh
drenched in self shame
with feet on ground
ignoring snide laughs
waiting, ships abound
here we are, once again
resolute and unwavering
learning new mistakes
for success most daring
quatrain # 8
resisting the urge to restore insanity
for it is tough to be sane
in this world of narcissistic vanity
somehow rationality is vain
