begging for pain

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staring at that blank page
for hours on end
trying really hard to find
worthy use for the parchment

where have all the words gone
why has the ink dried
used to fill both sides easy
it’s hard now to finish a side

maybe it’s this feeling i have
all the pain seems torched
how do i write when i’m happy
who am i if i’m not scorched

striving for danger

 da

why should i be satisfied
with mediocrity
why should i stop dreaming
of triumph
why should i distance myself
from risks
why should i give in to life
of security

my determination is who i am
fuck adequacy
my dreams are what drive me
fuck nightmares
my adventures are what excite me
fuck distress
my treacherous path is silk to me
fuck safety