no wonder days look so blurred
i don’t remember what sun looks like
there’s no warmth through my window
just cold, distant wind
the skies replaced by dark clouds
seem to have made themselves home
and yet false hope facing flyward
is still waiting for sunshine
Tag Archives: life
betrayal
is it fair to stab in the back
a person you held dear
the ruthlessness of the society
made you do that you fear
might someday happen to you
advantage over relations
pragmatic over emotions
at what cost, though
promises on occasions
are now buried declarations
what’s left behind
is a broken heart
and a soul unhealing
even sobs have choked
themselves to sleep
not that into you
why are there so many sleepless nights
is the thought of you keeping me awake
the way you moved, the way you smiled
nah! i’m over you, i just slept all morning
sinus
a well oiled machine
this body
oh, how things change
with just a cold
not today
not today, my love
not when the skies bleed
not when the lands parch
not when the clocks stop
don’t break my heart
unconditional betrayal
a moment of your time
for stories untold
a slice of your life
for secrets you sold
betrayal, loss, mistrust
i still can’t say no
afraid to lose you forever
why can’t i let you go
will it get better?
yesterday i was sleeping on a big bed, legs in leisure, paramount comfort. today, i can touch the opposite wall with absolutely no strain. i cannot stretch my legs. i can’t find any way to get comfortable.
to come to a new city and realize how people take advantage of people in need is not something i like. but, i can’t be too surprised. last time i was here, it had the same problems. the room was bigger though. more… roomier. this one cant be called a room. it’s a travesty that shouldn’t exist. i tried to adjust to it but it is fucking hard. placing a laptop on the bed that’s barely two feet wide and to try and rest… with my two bags that can’t fit anywhere, because there isn’t any place.
i am disappointed because this was supposed to help me study, get in the zone. how can i do that if the first problem that i need to solve is to be able to sit down quietly? i can hear others through the walls… people not more than five feet away from me. less than five hours and i am fed up. tired. and lost. i can’t get out for a month and this… this prison is all i got. such a different perspective, this. sad and lonely and miserable and in pain.
a call out of the blue
i miss my friends
scattered around every which way
i miss my friends
a song overheard
we used to sing together, out of tune
lyrically lazy
cheapest soda
only to get more and more, wasting time
how precious
riding a moped
sitting four with olympian skills
on a flat tyre
not lazy, now crazy busy
gulping pricey liquids alone
four seater, sits one
tick-tock
a day goes by
hours, spent
but without you
eternity, it meant