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Confronting Calories

Have you ever had to do a calorie count? I started doing that a few days ago and it is hard. Instead of finding ways to eat healthy, I try to find mislabeled and misleading products on the app.

I downed half a tub of ice cream yesterday and managed to find the product added by someone where they… ahem… forgot to add sugar. Yay! I met my goal.

In all seriousness though, when you are confronted with the reality, you tend to either face it head on, or ignore it completely. And it’s easy to ignore. Somehow I felt guilty all day. But then I reminded myself how good the taste was and I felt free again.

I think the most difficult part is to follow through. A day missed, and you are back on the bandwagon of unhealthy diet. Hopefully this wasn’t one of those days.

I might choose to update my progress on the blog every now and again just to keep myself accountable. Until then, sugar free coke zero will be my best friend… Kidding! I was thinking red bull!

unpaved trail

the unknown path,
why is it calling me
everyone’s left the shore
why is it showing me the way

i breath because of you
i see the world
but the eyes are yours
i exist because of you

i am used to it now

i walk this lonely road
unending, unbending
i stop on this lonely road
unrepentant, unburdened

i am used to it now

this path, what do they want
they are immovable
these limbs, what do they want
they are unstoppable

i am used to it now

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Reincarnation: do you believe in it?

Being afraid of the unknown is part of life. There are many different answers to this question. Philosophical search of self might lead to results unimaginable. Is it reincarnation if you found out something new about yourself that changes the core of who you are? Is it reincarnation if you leave your past behind and start anew? Is every Monday a reincarnation day? Different answers for different thoughts.

And then there’s science. The cold hard facts studied minutely in an attempt to obtain a solid result. There’s no irrefutable evidence that suggests the possibility of reincarnation. When you die, you die. Your brain deteriorates like every other part of your body. All information stores in it, lost. Never to be found again. Well, not in the same form, at least. But then again, even science tells that every cell in the body dies and replaced in about seven years. That’s a new body you have right there. You could consider that to be reincarnation if you choose.

At the end of the day, it’s all about perception. Choosing to believe without is still just a belief. And choosing to ignore facts is not gonna change reality. I don’t believe in reincarnation in the strictest sense of the word. However, I am open to it in a scientific way and in a philosophical way if it means starting fresh. But, I don’t know.

Inertia

The daily prompts are getting a bit boring now. I don’t know if that’s due to me trying to do most of them or because they are actually boring. Or maybe the rut is getting to me. I don’t want that. But sometimes you can’t control these things. The whole point is to be able to get through and come out the other side. I’m trying that.

Right now, it’s getting difficult to manage life. I feel pretty stressed out about tomorrow. And tomorrow I’ll feel the same about the day after. What I need right now is some change in the everyday proceedings. It’s funny how difficult any transition can be. Being unsure of yourself seems to be part of the job.

As to how long this will take is something I can’t put my finger on. There’s something called theory of inertia which states that objects that are moving or stationary will remain to do so unless acted upon by an external force. That’s actually the first law of motion. Seems to resonate a lot in life, not just the realm of physics. I need to find an external force to get out of this inertia. Act, you imbalanced force, act.

trust

the sweet nothings i whispered
were for you, not for one soul another
i thought we were together, up or down
here i am, without a shadow, full of doubt

tell me why? isn’t it the least i deserve
after all i lost, an answer to remember
shards of trust through broken heart
never again am i letting you close