trust

the sweet nothings i whispered
were for you, not for one soul another
i thought we were together, up or down
here i am, without a shadow, full of doubt

tell me why? isn’t it the least i deserve
after all i lost, an answer to remember
shards of trust through broken heart
never again am i letting you close

eternal love

i see myself in your eyes
the way you turn, the way you move
carrying the weight of the world
still smiling, waiting for me

i see you from afar, afraid
for a bit too close, will bring you harm
but my love for you my love
will be forever

i wait for you, i pine for you
for our time is measured, a moment
without you, an eternity
you’re the one for me

i can’t see you anymore
for you are eclipsed with someone
i see you cry, your fury
uncontrollable

a sudden shift in your nature
is not unnatural to me, but for beings
mortal, i implore your mercy
they are our children

the eclipse will end my love
the clouds will part and we’ll be together
for it is written
by skies

a matter of words

sometimes it just so happens
you are thrust into responsibilities
uncontained
a life flashes by and echos of
misunderstandings brings words
unconstrained

momentary lapse and regret knocks
sinking heart pulses with self
disdain
escalation elevates erring enmity
encapsulating entire egos erstwhile
entrenched

maturity jumps ships exposing
baseless wounds of yore still
maintained
shiny times simply forgotten
a choice for misery
sustained

just a step in the right direction
or a step back consciously if not
abstained
a chance mayhaps at a journey
together without blades for tongues
retained

lullaby

the voices in my head
so many rumblings like
bees homebound
the first glance of the girl
in school uniform when
we were young
the first kiss on the lips
parted, nervous fun
the success and the failure
each towards something
something big and beautiful
a life. levied, lived, loved
memories shared with
strangers, secrets told
they are worth something
to me, if i’m being bold
stories to strangers like
water to parched tongue
a voice justified just might
quench the desire of
life but in minutes
somehow somewhere there’s
one exactly for this story
and yet the murmurs inside
my head fighting for authority
so many voices, so many pleads
everywhere
running like rabid dogs after
a thunderstorm
am i to search to no avail
or find within
somehow, the soothing sensation
of the one who first spoke to me
with love never seen before
undeniable, unquestionable
understanding
how could i forget that sweet
voice, none better i ever heard
go ahead, tell my story
mom

i am sin

lust

the more i stare
the more they stare back
i just want him
the one behind the mirror

gluttony

why am i to save
a life that’s not mine
for i am better
far better than you

greed

don’t pray for me
i don’t desire blessings
if you want however
your money will do

sloth

i could’ve eased your
pain when you were hurting
maybe next time
i’m busy tonight

wrath

you, insignificant you
i won’t let you get away
with what you did to me
my wrath will destroy you

envy

you chose him
the clown who made you laugh
after all the things
i bought you

pride

if you think it’ll work
i pity your rotten life
for there’s no one better
than me, i’m rejecting you

ignorance

i was always better
there were no mistakes i made
she’s the one who couldn’t
understand my eminence

ritual

gentle nudge to bring me back

from the serene dream i had

your warm touch embraced

unlike that bright ball of fire

trying to shine brighter than you

how embarrassing for him

losing to but a dream of mine

a tragedy he shall face

for you are much more divine

when i open my eyes you

will be there smiling at me

unlike the eternity i woke up

to a weightless pillow