i used to be bothered by the pain
echos of failures haunting every
step, the ones i took, and the ones
i ignored
fumbling on the path every way
stumbling on success while window
shopping for some respite
i explored
feeling the rage by the laughter
coming my way, by the despicable
well wishers leeching onto misery
i broke
and yet with time by my side
success kept aside, a smile on my
lips for i’ve become so numb
i evolved
reminded of days when
my sister and i
fought over last piece of cake
days when we pulled
legs, but not punches
over silly little things
carefree and careless
getting out of school
triumphing, with fever fake
jumping up and down
heartily and satisfied
with arms for wings
time flows by, thoughts
though stationary, frozen
smile as warmth awaits
lust
the more i stare
the more they stare back
i just want him
the one behind the mirror
gluttony
why am i to save
a life that’s not mine
for i am better
far better than you
greed
don’t pray for me
i don’t desire blessings
if you want however
your money will do
sloth
i could’ve eased your
pain when you were hurting
maybe next time
i’m busy tonight
wrath
you, insignificant you
i won’t let you get away
with what you did to me
my wrath will destroy you
envy
you chose him
the clown who made you laugh
after all the things
i bought you
pride
if you think it’ll work
i pity your rotten life
for there’s no one better
than me, i’m rejecting you
i was always better
there were no mistakes i made
she’s the one who couldn’t
understand my eminence
So long I parched my throat
Against the goblet of grapes
Trampled for a cause better
Underneath wisdom lies youth
Rebellious wanting nothing
Dearly than reliving days with
Astonishing possibilities
Yearning for another night
gentle nudge to bring me back
from the serene dream i had
your warm touch embraced
unlike that bright ball of fire
trying to shine brighter than you
how embarrassing for him
losing to but a dream of mine
a tragedy he shall face
for you are much more divine
when i open my eyes you
will be there smiling at me
unlike the eternity i woke up
to a weightless pillow
everyday the same search
deep within
today’s great though
i have something new
better than yesterday
backspace is assaulted
cracks visible
yet i go through
i have something new
better than yesterday
this time it’ll work
i have a feeling
this one is readable
i have something new
better than yesterday
it’s been so long
the pen has dried off
this is worth it
i have something new
better than yesterday
i had so much to say
all lost in time
was that worth it
waiting for something new
better than yesterday
waiting for perfection
i stopped being good
all i can show
edits of blank drafts
just like yesterday
striving to better
oft we mar what’s well
said shakespeare once
so here’s my imperfect poem
just like yesterday
i am fear
narcissistic and proud
for you forget all the joy
and happiness turns
like a mold hanging
over your head
you are afraid
stunned and paralysed
for you meet the darkness
lurking behind brave facade
like an old friend
you sent away
we are together
my villain and your hero
for it is written by the stars
and i’ll crush your hopes, dreams
like only i can
until you give up
is it enough to be myself
or do i slap a mask on
prominent smile is bound to
bring in friendly strangers
but won’t i lose myself
in the plethora of fakes
giving away the freedoms
no matter what it takes
will i get an ear
to my pleads, my stories
or will it be a blind eye
to all my fears, my worries
violent thoughts occupy me
betrayed by my own
we shared a life together
every night, every morn
and you left me hanging
staring into the abyss
the dreams we had together
witnessing that kiss
you made all my troubles vanish
gave me a world of opportunities
i can’t find a trace of yours now
no matter how much i pray the deities
i wish you’d come back now
for it is my only will
without you o my internet
how am i to netflix and chill
