Poem – Page 4

half foot to go

half foot in the air
another half to go
doubt feels real now
don’t know where to go

is it possible to change
destiny that seems written
or is the thorny road right
and i am the wrong one

all i can do is wait now
half step in the air
crossing my fingers, hoping
i rid myself of despair

i have demons in me
demons of my utter failure
gnawing away my life
crippling me from inside

my insidious fears
overwhelming my heart
beats running thunderous
for an unexpected stop

yet i’m to hold off
losing my composure
to maintain my dignity
and overcome failure

how am i to do this
when demons in me reside
gnawing away my life
crippling me from inside

noise

in the middle of the city
away from serenity
there’s a place noisy and loud
underneath polluted cloud

i like it here, it’s nice
the bustle, the noise
makes me part of humanity
maintaining my sanity

but what’s that i see morphing
connected humans, quietly working
never seeing eye to eye
never a hello, never a bye

the blaring roars are gone now
don’t know why, don’t know how
all i hear is silence, shitty
right in the middle of the city

a life in balance, hung
and stares stuck to screen
unforgiving heart skipping beats
just waiting for a ring

but the light never turned
even with signals high
clinging hope slipping away
and sad reality, nigh

what i thought a serious business
for you was just a game
you broke my soul, crushed my dreams
i curse you all the same