the days of sunshine and rain
are now a memory, a dream distant
wish i could relive them again
and drown the sorrow this instant
why can’t the mirror see that far
but just a moment passed instead
and reassure gloom it won the war
reveling coldly in those eyes dead
all i’m left with are memories now
for my present is forever alone
but can the furure be hopeful somehow
or all my happiness is forever gone
another year another chance
another life another dance
another destiny another hope
another dream another rope
another end awaits
carrying with it
hopeful beginnings
and old socks
such strong belief
mind so delirious
must be a relief
being oblivious
a dread spread throughout
for a decision can change life
regret will be the only friend
and the wound will be rife
but isn’t it better if it’s me
who is responsible for his own
mistakes that are made on the way
instead of blaming people unknown
so let me face my failure
for success is elusive but nigh
give up myself for a shortcut
my god you must be high
the temptation and the allure
of all those bright colors
waiting to be consumed
and yet i stand resolutely
shaking
trying to keep those hands in
the very pocket with a wallet
asking to be spent
how long before i give in and
let the sweets make me fat
a laughing stock for everyone
that’s all i am anymore
made a fool again, and then some
disheartened to the core
what was it that i did to you
was it really my folly
or was it a ploy to humiliate me
for my tears made you jolly
are you happy with my misery now
did it bring you joy
or are you another misery yourself
and this happiness, just a ploy
living in a skin not of my own
watching another body, mimicking
a life, that could’ve been mine
if not for the coin toss
to listen to everyone
with no thoughts
to your thoughts
rambling away their lives
just so you can put on
a face of resemblance
semblance to the ideas
that otherwise are thrown
away, not around
to indulge insanity
momentarily and forgetting
to set a clock against
pain and suffering
from incoherence stretched
for eternity and beyond
wishing all the while
to have the strength
to say – shut up
