existence lies
in belief
sometimes reality
is a lie
i am everywhere
i am nowhere
life lies
in action
a flatline
is a lie
i am dead
i am alive
Tag Archives: Self
a song
a song heard within
humming away anxious soul
as peace finds itself
with mind in control
can’t seem to place though
the tune stuck inside
was it something i heard
or did it in my heart reside
my fears melted away forever
i’m ready for the raven
humming away my song
it’ll feel i’m bound to heaven
striving for danger
why should i be satisfied
with mediocrity
why should i stop dreaming
of triumph
why should i distance myself
from risks
why should i give in to life
of security
my determination is who i am
fuck adequacy
my dreams are what drive me
fuck nightmares
my adventures are what excite me
fuck distress
my treacherous path is silk to me
fuck safety
real freedom
dreams make for a wonderful life
for perfection is impeccable
and thoughts, limitless
but life outside closed eyelids
is a life with real stakes
worth fighting, tireless
at what cost
to render useless a life
but for a cause
is it justified?
the lives left behind
helpless and broken
to be crucified?
and the cause stands
losing another soul
with hope paralyzed
getting on with life
forgetting to learn
from mistakes unrealized
judgements
a little hair out of place
a little longer in the bed
a little decibel higher
and i am judged
there’s a finality in that guess
no heed given to what i said
trying to balance a high wire
still i am judged
that plastered smile on your face
is that purple skirt with red
like a hooker on hire
yes, you are judged
everyone judges everyone else
but judge themselves, they see red
and yet goes on, this quagmire
we are all fucked
just listen
why is it that what i say
and what you hear
is always out of sync
my truths are your lies
your darkness for my light
wouldn’t it make you think
and yet i stand here
resolute and alone
taking the road high
and there you are
always with a reason
to say goodbye
retracted life
plans made to perfection
only to be looked back upon
as broken promises
a hand extended to help
only for a swift retraction
to let plunge in darkness
a heart let go for someone
only to be crushed into pieces
never to be one again
waiting for you
withdrawn from the world
alone for a long quest
inhibited and furled
thriving on my own zest
inundated as solitude hurled
never felt such unrest
geared for a life whirled
fear thumping neath chest
optimistic yet curled
rational, yet with unrest
yearning for love swirled
one day it will attest
until then, my world…