loneliness by nature is lonely
thrilling matches witnessed alone
long walks and empty hands
dinner for one, staring at walls
i strategically lit my home
for shadows are my friends now
Tag Archives: Self
sunless
no wonder days look so blurred
i don’t remember what sun looks like
there’s no warmth through my window
just cold, distant wind
the skies replaced by dark clouds
seem to have made themselves home
and yet false hope facing flyward
is still waiting for sunshine
betrayal
is it fair to stab in the back
a person you held dear
the ruthlessness of the society
made you do that you fear
might someday happen to you
advantage over relations
pragmatic over emotions
at what cost, though
promises on occasions
are now buried declarations
what’s left behind
is a broken heart
and a soul unhealing
even sobs have choked
themselves to sleep
will it get better?
yesterday i was sleeping on a big bed, legs in leisure, paramount comfort. today, i can touch the opposite wall with absolutely no strain. i cannot stretch my legs. i can’t find any way to get comfortable.
to come to a new city and realize how people take advantage of people in need is not something i like. but, i can’t be too surprised. last time i was here, it had the same problems. the room was bigger though. more… roomier. this one cant be called a room. it’s a travesty that shouldn’t exist. i tried to adjust to it but it is fucking hard. placing a laptop on the bed that’s barely two feet wide and to try and rest… with my two bags that can’t fit anywhere, because there isn’t any place.
i am disappointed because this was supposed to help me study, get in the zone. how can i do that if the first problem that i need to solve is to be able to sit down quietly? i can hear others through the walls… people not more than five feet away from me. less than five hours and i am fed up. tired. and lost. i can’t get out for a month and this… this prison is all i got. such a different perspective, this. sad and lonely and miserable and in pain.
a call out of the blue
i miss my friends
scattered around every which way
i miss my friends
a song overheard
we used to sing together, out of tune
lyrically lazy
cheapest soda
only to get more and more, wasting time
how precious
riding a moped
sitting four with olympian skills
on a flat tyre
not lazy, now crazy busy
gulping pricey liquids alone
four seater, sits one
unpaved trail
the unknown path,
why is it calling me
everyone’s left the shore
why is it showing me the way
i breath because of you
i see the world
but the eyes are yours
i exist because of you
i am used to it now
i walk this lonely road
unending, unbending
i stop on this lonely road
unrepentant, unburdened
i am used to it now
this path, what do they want
they are immovable
these limbs, what do they want
they are unstoppable
i am used to it now
shhhhhh……
a secret in those eyes
hidden away, locked
the betrayal and the lies
i feel i’m being mocked
a feeling uneasy, every time
i look at you now
and you say everything’s fine
yet you broke the vow
would you gain back the trust
so unceremoniously broken
or give in again to lust
and be just a token
a secret never for another ear
but only for those eyes
staring through the crumpled mirror
and with it, it shall die
trust
the sweet nothings i whispered
were for you, not for one soul another
i thought we were together, up or down
here i am, without a shadow, full of doubt
tell me why? isn’t it the least i deserve
after all i lost, an answer to remember
shards of trust through broken heart
never again am i letting you close
advice
empty space for miles, a blank world out of the blue
every man for himself. a selfish world, it has come to
morality in question. sunken without a clue
there’s one thing you should know, now you do
