mourning for a year
mourning the birth month
mourning the death month
and then slowly
look at the pictures
two days a year
until the most distant memory
fades away
Tag Archives: thoughts
unanswered questions
hard to forget
a time without you
hard to forgive
the decisions
taken without thought
and what they’ll mean
to me
all i’m left
is sorrow and grief
and unanswered questions
purpose?
a heavy heart
and an empty feeling
that’s all there is
to life, at times
entangled
one of those days when i’m livid
not because i’m angry, but sad
to see that i can’t heal you
or to feel the pain you hide
poorly
is confiding a forgone thought
what is it? something i did?
or something i should’ve
what made you feel it’s better
alone
i’m helpless and all i want
is to help you feel like self
you might not realize, my love
but when you push me away, i
die
a fleeting feeling
standing by the road, still
the world moves by
and a terrible feeling
the traffic is more disciplined
than these haphazard thoughts
letting you go
for years we kept our distance
for we couldn’t see eye to eye
forgetting the bond we shared
forgetting to say goodbye
that was all the hope needed
that there’ll be another chance
that’ll never happen now
that’ll never be my stance
for i have given up on you
for you have given up on hope
forever to be a lone now
forever eying that hanging rope
exile
imprisoned with my own freedom…
while the shackled world moves on!
misplaced rage
disappointed with the way
i am treated simply because
you are the one hiding secrets
from me
why am i the one who suffers
the rage and swings and not
the one who is responsible
for this
am i to just give up my voice
and give in to all your whims
or should i stand my ground
and say ‘fuck off’
dismay
the rampant betrayal of self
is it really worth it
or do you think i’ll take you back
lack of esteem
you should’ve just conveyed
what was in your heart
instead you chose to string mine
till it broke in millions
now i rage not for the hurt
but for the future we could’ve had
if it weren’t for your delusions
thinking it was just a game
