the foggy reflection in the mirror
of loss and regret
wiping down teary wide eyes
cursing the fate
who is it to blame for all this
whom should i hate
or was it me all along responsible
causing this upset
wait, the blame i passed onto others
for failures uncountable
while i stopped even trying at all
saying they’re insurmountable
it was me standing still, world moved
my damage irreversible
all i can do now is stare at foggy eyes
and cry inconsolable
a gorgeous sunset through naked eyes
didn’t happen
an electrifying concert witnessed
didn’t happen
lip smacking indian food the other day
never tasted
the miles ran just after the sunset
never experienced
for the camera was off
a moment not captured on an sd card
is not a moment at all
memories, who cares about them
all i need is validation from strangers
liking my stuff, while they cry inside
unimaginable pain piercing through
when reality strikes
shaken legs looking for a flat surface
when gloomy future arise
yet strength carries forward the soul
for you’re not alone
hope and heart for a better tomorrow
and old wounds gone
but out comes the truth unbearable
staring right at you
all you thought were close are no more
left right on queue
friends shared the pain before
hearts sympathetic
was a ruse you couldn’t catch, my god
you are pathetic
nah… i’ve endured enough for you
no more shall i come to your rescue
a toy to play with and then
shove it under the bed
discarded. disposed off
away from any living gaze
while you roam around with
someone else
catering to every whims of
this creature
and i endure…
pain… regret… loss.
only for you to come back with
tears to soak my shirt
and me to just be happy while
i cry… i shout… i tremble…
to blind eyes and deaf ears
no more
this, here is when
i let you go
this, here, is when
i take a stand
this, here, is when
i become free!
what you leave behind are just memories
fading every passing moment
until one day you return to find yourself all alone
staring at soulless strangers
the nature of nature is naturally unnatural
a little wind here, a little rain there and behold
the scared and helpless humans with little machines
out of their depth whilst the earth swallows them whole
thrill of a secret, behind closed door
hushed voices, scared to the core
a drag, this life, a drag to forget
needle underneath, and now it’s too late
buried with burden, i’m free no more
ripped hearts i see, i see promises i tore
undone by lows, high only to hate
quest a happy life, alas! sealed fate
there’s something about those eyes
piercing through the heart
and yet cold and distant
i fear the secrets they hide
loneliness by nature is lonely
thrilling matches witnessed alone
long walks and empty hands
dinner for one, staring at walls
i strategically lit my home
for shadows are my friends now
